Saturday, 30 June 2012

People See What They Want To See


Just the other day my testimony was aired on TBN Family Media and once again I was shocked by the feedback I got from the viewers. Having been on various shows in different media houses, I should by now have gotten used to the varying and sometimes crazy feedback, but for some reason I keep expecting that every time it will be a different experience.

Maybe it is because I go on the shows with a simple reason to encourage and inspire the viewers but it always proves that the viewers are looking for something more than just encouragement and inspiration. In fact, some want none of that, but there is something else that they see in me that makes them either email, call or text me with their requests, and when they do, they are very convinced that they have put forward their requests to the right person.
So what was the feedback after my testimony was aired on the program GOD CHANGES PEOPLE? As varied as they come:

There are those who watched my testimony and cried throughout when they realized I was telling their stories as well. It gave them encouragement, that I went through so much and came out victorious, so they knew that they too, would come out of what they were going through with a testimony in their mouths and a song of praise.

There was the second lot that watched the program and saw my protruding tummy and in that they saw a business opportunity. They therefore emailed and requested me to buy an education policy from them.

There was a third lot that also saw my protruding tummy and in that they saw a job opportunity, so they emailed and asked me to employ them as house helps etc.

There was a fourth lot that when at the end of the program my husband was given a chance to say hallo and throw in a word of encouragement to men out there, all they saw was a lot of dollar$$ so they have been texting and emailing their proposals for school bursaries and the like. I wish I was as rich as people think I am. There were also those in this category who have written with a request to ask if they can be my property and estate managers. I say, someday soon, that is a prayer you are praying for me, for God to bless me enough to employ property and estate managers.

Then there was a fifth lot that saw my husband and only noticed his colour, and wondered why I had to marry a white man. And the hate mails came. Some have gone as far as writing to ask me if there was a shortage of men in Kenya for me to get married outside Kenya. If you are one of those men that wrote to ask me that, trust me you don’t want to hear my answer because it might send you straight to ICU. Well, in my view, my 2 cents on this, the polite view that won’t send you to ICU, whether there is a shortage of men in Kenya or not is not my problem, because I belong to a kingdom where the word ‘shortage’ does not exist. If God saw it fit to import a husband just for me, he he he, who am I to say no? I know someone will send me a hate email because of this statement, he he he. That prophesy in Isaiah 4:1 that says that a time will come when 7 women will cling on to one man just to be associated with him, pp, I say that that is not my portion in Jesus name!

Most of the time we see people on TV and we think they have told us everything about themselves. They tell us a very small section about their lives and we fill up all the gaps. We see what we want to see. We make their lives what we want to make them. And some people even go as far as spreading rumours about people they hardly know based on a 30 minutes interview that they heard on radio or telly. What is 30 minutes compared to a lifetime? What makes us think that a 30 minutes interview gives us the right to think we know everything about everyone?

I understand why people see what they want to see, because even I, when I look at the mirror, I want to see a beautiful woman smiling back at me. I love dancing, I did that a lot before age caught up with me and before a crazy matatu driver decided to send my leg on a compulsory leave. And so when I try a new move in front of the mirror, even when I know I suck at it, I still want to see a perfect move that can win me some kind of award. So even before I look at the mirror, I already have an image on my mind of how I should look like, or what I should see.

I am reminded of a newspaper article that was published about an year ago by a leading media house here in Kenya. The article had a few mistakes which haunt me even today. The newspaper mentioned that my uterus was removed during a CS operation and the doctors debated about discarding it (which is true); what the article forgot to say is that in the end the doctors returned it back. 

Now you can imagine what the feedback from that article was. From people feeling so sorry for me, to men, especially widowers, writing to ask me out, to people, who knew the truth calling me a liar and accusing me of lying so as to get famous. 

I remember this high profile government official that invited me for coffee, and the na├»ve me thought he wanted to help me promote the book (I had just released my first book Broken To Be Made Whole). So I went for coffee, looking very sharp in a business suit. A cup of coffee later, the guy was already telling me he was widowed, had school going children, and was interested in marrying me. Don’t forget I had just met him!

Then there was this Kenyan ‘pastor’ who resides I think in Netherlands, but was on a working holiday here, I forgot his details sorry, and he asked me to deliver a couple of books in town. I did. A cup of coffee later, the pastor was already telling me how God spoke to him while in Netherlands, or wherever it is that he lives, and told him that I was going to be his wife. This trend was now becoming very worrying. In all politeness I told the man of the cloth that I was in speaking terms with God as well so if He, God, wanted me to marry him then he would have spoken to me directly as well. Well, to cut a long story short, several days later, several angry text messages from him, and several threats to assassinate my reputation, the case ended at a police station because the man of God did not believe that he was going back home without me.. And yes, this one too I only met him once…which reminds me he didn’t even pay for my books because he thought by not paying me, he had given me a reason to see him another day to collect the cash, which of course I did not! This is where you all help me say in unison,  riswa!’

All in all, I usually joke that this particular article earned me more would-be-husbands than it encouraged people. I got so many marriage proposals from strangers. And these are just but a few of the stuff am willing to make public, there have been crazier stuff that have cropped up because of an article appearing in the papers, but I have learnt to somehow ignore people’s opinions especially those who purposely say stuff to hurt me.

So again I ask, even if you read something in the newspapers, or online, how sure are you that that information is true? And whether it is true or not, what makes us think that a one or two page article is enough to tell us everything about a person? even if your story has never appeared on a newspaper or anywhere else for that matter, am sure there are people who have taken one look at you and judged your whole life based on that half a minute encounter you have had with them. The problem is that most of us listen to other people’s opinions of us more than we listen to what God says about us. We allow their opinions to cripple us. I have made up my mind that if I read something negative about myself somewhere, I will just laugh it off and move on to the place that God has called me to be.

My question is, is it so important how others see you? Should you kill yourself trying to make other people see you the way you want them to see you. I came to one conclusion, that what matters most is how God sees you. If I can see myself the way God sees me, then I am set for life. 

In my 3rd book, The View From Above, I have explained how true freedom (from other people’s opinions) can only come when you know what the heavens are saying about you. “…If you know the truth about who you are in God, and what the view is from above, what heavens says about you, then you will easily blossom wherever it is that God has planted you, even if you are in a desert. …” The View From Above (Book).

Saturday, 2 June 2012

HELP!!! I Am Addicted To Being Prayed For (& Receiving Prophesies)!


I know this is not the type of blog post that would earn me awards or get me loved by everyone, but it is a post that I hope and pray will change many lives. By now I know you have observed that some of my blogs are a bit controversial especially when they touch on issues that for one reason or another are being practiced in church but in my heart of hearts I feel are not biblical at all. I love to speak my mind, yes, but I love to speak the mind of God more. The problem is not everyone thinks that God uses ordinary people like me. Except a word comes from their pastors, they cannot accept it as truth. They become very defensive and go as far as telling you 'not to touch the anointed' and 'not to judge others', and bla bla bla, especially when you are bold enough not to sugarcoat sin.

God's people perish for lack of knowledge.

As a sheep, it is your responsibility to be wise, it is your responsibility to guard yourself against the snares, traps and deceptions of today, because, there are wolves out there. See what Matthew 10:16 says, "Behold, am sending you out as sheep in the midst of wolves, so be wise [have good, basic, fundamental knowledge of something] as serpents, and innocent [harmless] as doves." A wolf does not announce that it is a wolf, if anything, it dresses itself up as a sheep. Many people are finding themselves in territories they have no idea how they even got there, others are still trapped in practices that are completely unbiblical, simply because they have not allowed the Word of God to wisen them up.

Do you know someone who answers every altar call? Every time the pastor is praying for people with problems they are always the first ones to go to the front? Do you know people who are always waiting for a prophesy from the pastor? Maybe you are one, do not feel offended, keep reading, am sure God is reaching out to you right now.

I am very saddened to see how every time you meet some people, they never have good news to share, but instead have a list of prayer requests. THEY ARE ADDICTED TO BEING PRAYED FOR!! They make no effort to learn how to commune with the Father, they make no effort to learn how to pray for themselves. They refuse to plunge into the deeper waters in God.

When Christ died on Calvary, He did so that EVERY ONE can have DIRECT access to the Father. But sadly, some people today have turned their focus unto pastors and fellow men, their passion is unto others and not unto God. Either they are ignorant, or they are too lazy to pray for themselves. As long as there is someone somewhere who can pray for them, they make no effort whatsoever to pray for themselves. They do not seek God as they should, because they have become addicted to a particular pastor, prophet, apostle or servant. THEY ARE ADDICTED TO PEOPLE WHO PRAY!!!

Some go as far as presenting their prayer requests list to everyone they come across. They ask for advice from every man of God they come across. Obviously they get varying answers, and guess what, they accept the answer that suits them best. THEY SHOP AROUND FOR THE ANSWER THEY WANT TO HEAR, WHETHER IT IS RIGHT OR WRONG, instead of seeking what they NEED to hear!!

God wants you to seek His presence, not the presence of your pastor…or your praying friends.
In my line of work and ministry I come across people who are always asking for me to pray for them. They never read the Bible, they do not go to church, and they do not even respect God. But asking others to pray for them as they snore away is their speciality. They dump on you their list of problems then call you every now and then to find out if you have a solution for them yet, or a word. I am not saying that it is wrong to be prayed for, No, in fact I also share my prayer requests with friends. What I am saying is that EVERYONE needs to have a prayer life. EVERYONE needs to seek God more for themselves. You do not have to wait on Sunday to hear what your pastor’s God has in store for you. The same access your pastor has before God is also granted to you. You can approach the throne as long as you are a child of God! YOUR PASTOR IS NOT YOUR GOD!!

Look at what John 15:5 says, “I am the vine, you are the branches. If a man remains in me and I in him, he will bear much fruit;…” This was Jesus speaking, saying that HE IS THE VINE!! The reason you look at your pastor and see a fruitful life, you tend to think that God answers their prayers better than He answers yours; but the reason your pastors life is fruitful is because he/she is connected to the vine. When you see that, your duty is to get connected to the vine as well, not to make your pastor your vine. Instead of looking forward every Sunday to eat from your pastor’s fruit basket, why not purpose to bear fruit yourself? 

The ground is level at Calvary.
The same way your pastor can access the grace of God is the same way you too can. There is no special pass for pastors. Your pastor’s Father is your Father too. When Jesus said in Matthew 26:41, “Watch and pray so that you will not fall into temptation…”, He was not just instructing pastors, He was instructing EVERYONE.

God is calling you to stop putting your trust in man, but to trust in Him and Him alone! We already have been given the ultimate helper, the ultimate intercessor! The Holy Spirit is there to help us in our times of need, in our times of weaknesses, and to help us to pray, for “…we do not know what we ought to pray for, but the Spirit Himself intercedes for us with groans that words cannot express. And He who searches our hearts knows the mind of the Spirit, because the Spirit intercedes for the saints in accordance with God’s will.” Romans 8:26-27. Now, that can only happen if you allow the Holy Spirit to do it. He is very gentle, He does not force His way into situations. Give Him a chance, stop running to every Tom, Dick & Harry for prayers. God honours the prayers of the righteous, so He will honour yours the same way He will honour your pastor’s, or your friends’.

A new breed of pastors.
I think this is where most of you will not like me. Because some people in the church have been too lazy to seek God for themselves, and have been waiting for their pastors to seek God then relay the message to them, there has been a birth of a new breed of pastors. I am in no position of authority to talk about this much, but I feel that it is good we understand what is happening and why it is happening.

Our laxity to seek God has made some pastors feel too ‘needed’. Hell yes, sorry, heaven yes, aarrrggg, whatever, hell yes, we need them if we cannot approach God ourselves. They have discovered our weaknesses, they know that we do not seek God for ourselves, they know that we wait for Sunday to hear from God, THROUGH THEM ALONE, and they have therefore perfected the art of being needed. Instead of teaching us to pray for ourselves, instead of teaching us to seek God for ourselves, they want us to seek their presence every Sunday. When they make an altar call they want as many people to answer it as possible. We have become targets of their schemes. Selling anointing oil and handkerchiefs have become the order of the day instead of urging people to seek God. Instead of leading people towards lasting solutions which can only be found in God, they are leading the flock towards broken cisterns which cannot hold water.

They have made us prophesy junkies. They know the lengths some people will go to just to get a prophetic word, whose authenticity they cannot even tell. not only have they been misleading the sheep, but they have turned something that is biblical into a commercial venture. You only need to switch on your television to a Christian station and see for yourself the advertisements from pastors. ‘Do you want the man of God to prophesy to you? Sow a seed of kshs 310 and you will get your prophesy’. ‘Buy a bottle of anointing oil and your life will never be the same again’. I call this spiritual witchcraft!!! They keep us hungering for a spiritual high. 

Sadly, not everyone is getting their spiritual high from the Holy Spirit, rather, there are other options being offered in churches, and sadly, again, the flock is not in a position to tell. 1st Tomthy 4:1 says, "The Spirit clearly says that in later times some will abandon the faith and follow deceiving spirits and things taught by demons." Why wont the flock tell the lie from the truth? Because they have been kept in the dark concerning some fundamental principles (and are too lazy to seek the truths for themselves). Most Christians think they are too spiritual to be fooled, but they are in fact living under this perilous delusion and deceit (truth misrepresented). I could talk and talk about brainwashing, mind control and other things happening in churches today, but let me just summarize it this way, IF YOU NEED A SPIRITUAL HIGH, THEN GET DRUNK ON THE HOLY SPIRIT!!!

It is so sad that most of us read the Bible upside down...somehow. We are clearly told in the book of Mark 16:17 that signs and wonders shall follow those who belive. But what do we do? We are busy running after miracles! We are busy running after 'pastors' who perform the most miracles in town. We are busy chasing after every televangelist that displays their 'healing' prowess on TV. THIS IS WRONG!! LET US SEEK GOD AND IN THAT WAY, WE WILL NOT HAVE TO CHASE MIRACLES, MIRACLES WILL CHASE US!

You are called to seek God, not to seek prophesies.
Some people have received so many prophesies in their lives that they live in ‘Confusion avenue’. They have received so many fake prophesies that when finally the right prophesy comes along they cannot tell. People who were meant to be men of God, prophets of God, have misused their calling and are now operating like psychics. How can you tell a fake if you do not know the original? How can you know the voice of a false prophet if you do not know the voice of God? And how can you know the voice of God except by seeking Him? Read the Bible for yourself and know what it says concerning your situation. Pray. Fast. Worship. Do everything in your power to have a personal relationship with God. He is a rewarder of those who diligently seek Him.

My prayer is that this blog post will set someone free and liberate them from the lies of the enemy. Forgive me if I have pushed a button I should not have,...if only someone reading this will wisen up and decide to seek God for themselves, and not wait on the God of their pastors.

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